The Falling Out

Missed phone calls and ditched parties later, still I wonder how we are what we are and how your nonchalant-self is coping with it. It’s a shame really- to realize who you’ve chosen to replace me with. We must not have been what I thought for you to be so passive, even encouraging through the whole process. How bout we start at the beginning- where the innocent little angel was tempted by the devil. At first it was a revelation, who knew- stories would diminish and instead I had been given a front-row seat. Now sooner or later, miss em had to get stage-fright and was eventually booed off stage. Slowly, you were postponed and ultimately cancelled. Yet to your surprise, little miss innocent stayed and became the new coming attraction. I was not inclined to give up but try harder. My unsuccessful attempts failed to make an impression on you and in the end it was you who failed to make an impact on me. Or so I made it seem like. One last time I try to rekindle the fire, but looks like the temp got offered a permanent job. Well congratulations are in order- hope you like it bitter cause that’s all you’ll get from her wine.

(Withdrawal) Symptoms

Permission to withdraw after deadline may be granted only under exceptional circumstances. Hoping that mine falls under such exceptional circumstances, I ask to withdraw from my own money, boldly wasting both my time and thousands of dollars. I suppose my proposal of an extenuating personal issue of love is exceptional enough out of the McGill population. It isn’t one reason but a cluster of mistakes consisting lack of self-control, obsessive character, and perhaps not a care in the world. You’d think I’d be angry after all my time spent on such things- but realistically, how much time did I actually spend? I came in waiting for my mind to feel comfortable in this place, while dealing with the fact that I actually might not want to be here.

I had tried to prove an imagined population wrong, and therefore causing my own suffering, and yet I am required to provide documentation of my extenuating circumstances so I may be granted permission to waste my own resources? Perhaps what these smart Redmen might not have learned in class is that personal issues cannot be documented and the simple act of wanting to withdraw is the only document they’ll receive.